I haven’t written anything out in a long time. Things have been weird because isn’t that how life is? I usually try to write at least once a year now to reflect on my life and to see where I am compared to how bad it was for so many years. In fact, things have been going good…maybe to good actually and that is where … Continue reading Just thinking again

Every time it happens I have to laugh. People will bring my ex up to me and I’m sure it will happen for a large part of my life. An old friend of her’s exposed some things she had said and done during and after our marriage. As usual I wasn’t shocked over finding it out. Some of it I knew, but I’m glad they … Continue reading Is It Worth It?

I frighten myself sometimes. Not in a, I’m going to shoot up the place, kind of fear, but more of how I’ve handled the tradegies in my life. The paths I might take. Who I’ve slowly become as a person. Having PTSD is something you either have to live with or you something that takes you out earlyon. I found out last week that a … Continue reading Suffering Oddly Helps

I love the band Tool. By far one of the best bands that have ever existed and I wouldn’t be shocked if nothing like them comes out for a long time. However, moving passed praising them, I was listening to them this morning and on my playlist the song “The Grudge” pops up. “Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity Calculate what we will … Continue reading Wearing Your Grudges

I recently read the book “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck” and I have to say it was something that I didn’t think I was going to like that much. At first I heard it was somewhat of a self-help book and I honestly can’t stand them, and this one within the first chapter didn’t grab me right away. I thought it was … Continue reading When To Give A Fuck

I just put in a police report to the man that had an affair with my now ex wife. After putting in the report and going shopping with my youngest I started to look at him and realized that I’m not going to be broken apart from this thing for the next fifteen years. And it somewhat scares me on what is going to happen. … Continue reading The Next 15 Years Are Going To Be Difficult