I’ve been studying Buddhism a lot lately. Reading, watching videos or having small talks with people. I was curious about it even back in high school when I first read a book about it, but I never really plunged into it before until late last month. It is hard to get used to the teachings and there are still so many opinions from others who … Continue reading I’m Starting To Dive Into Buddhism
I like to reflect on things usually when a year passes by specific events or possible upcoming ones. Two years have passed since I had a huge gradual change in my life. Attempted suicide, divorce, finding out terrible things about my marriage, but at the same time great things have happened. In fact, every day the good starts to outweigh the bad. Recently I’ve come … Continue reading A little over two years
Last week I had gotten really good news. It was so unexpected and it brought me so much joy. I knew it was going to change my life and my son’s lives as well. I couldn’t have been happier and it continues until this morning. A friend called to tell me another close friend of ours had just passed away. We weren’t in much contact … Continue reading Good News To Bad
For about a year I’ve come to understand what love is and how dangerous it can be to just throw the word around. It was the first thing I tried to understand after my divorce was final and I got the papers. What is love? Did I really love her? Did she even love me? When I finally came to that conclusion I felt a … Continue reading We Use The Word Love To Much
This is probably the hardest part about being divorced now. I know a few people that have done it, and they do a great job at it, but for me I don’t think I can ever be friends with my ex-wife. Even for the sake of my kids I just don’t think I can. I feel selfish for thinking this way and when I try … Continue reading I can’t be friends with my ex and I’m fine with it
Today I took my oldest son on a field trip and for some reason so many memories started to pop into my mind. I hate the human brain. It never remembers what I want it to, but it will help me to remember the worst moments of my life. When my first child was born I cried for the entire first week of his life. … Continue reading Letting Go Of What I Can’t Control
I’ve been having many issues of trust lately, and on almost every scale of any type of relationship. I know it might seem stupid to some people to move on, but I can’t, and it just disturbs me. I’m 34 years old and I’m not sure if I can hold a steady relationship and even some friendships with people due to my previous marriage. The … Continue reading What If I Only See Flags?