Every time it happens I have to laugh. People will bring my ex up to me and I’m sure it will happen for a large part of my life. An old friend of her’s exposed some things she had said and done during and after our marriage. As usual I wasn’t shocked over finding it out. Some of it I knew, but I’m glad they … Continue reading Is It Worth It?
I frighten myself sometimes. Not in a, I’m going to shoot up the place, kind of fear, but more of how I’ve handled the tradegies in my life. The paths I might take. Who I’ve slowly become as a person. Having PTSD is something you either have to live with or you something that takes you out earlyon. I found out last week that a … Continue reading Suffering Oddly Helps
I love the band Tool. By far one of the best bands that have ever existed and I wouldn’t be shocked if nothing like them comes out for a long time. However, moving passed praising them, I was listening to them this morning and on my playlist the song “The Grudge” pops up. “Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity Calculate what we will … Continue reading Wearing Your Grudges
As usual I get invited on a date and I chicken out. No reason other than myself. The girl was attractive, she seemed nice and she knew what it was like to be a single parent. However, I recently had to take my kids into therapy, and it has been a hurdle I can’t get over. In fact, I think I might stay single for … Continue reading Therapy for my sons and realizing the sad truth
I was recently told by my parents that my ex’s boyfriend sent them a message on Facebook. At first, I was scared. What did he say? My kids have told me things they dislike about him, with good reason, so this worried me and them about him, so I couldn’t imagine what he was going to say to my parents. It wasn’t anything bad, but … Continue reading A Lesson Of Love In The Oddest Place
I’ve been studying Buddhism a lot lately. Reading, watching videos or having small talks with people. I was curious about it even back in high school when I first read a book about it, but I never really plunged into it before until late last month. It is hard to get used to the teachings and there are still so many opinions from others who … Continue reading I’m Starting To Dive Into Buddhism
I like to reflect on things usually when a year passes by specific events or possible upcoming ones. Two years have passed since I had a huge gradual change in my life. Attempted suicide, divorce, finding out terrible things about my marriage, but at the same time great things have happened. In fact, every day the good starts to outweigh the bad. Recently I’ve come … Continue reading A little over two years