The things I dislike, hate or even fear has changed so much these three years. For so long I hated a Master Chief in the military who decided to turn my life upside down. Him and his goons decided to mentally torture me for my last years on that boat. I physically in pain from an accident, which later lead them to verbally and mentally … Continue reading So Much Changes Over Time
I recently read the book “The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck” and I have to say it was something that I didn’t think I was going to like that much. At first I heard it was somewhat of a self-help book and I honestly can’t stand them, and this one within the first chapter didn’t grab me right away. I thought it was … Continue reading When To Give A Fuck
Last week I had gotten really good news. It was so unexpected and it brought me so much joy. I knew it was going to change my life and my son’s lives as well. I couldn’t have been happier and it continues until this morning. A friend called to tell me another close friend of our had just passed away. We weren’t in much contact … Continue reading Good News To Bad
For about a year I’ve come to understand what love is and how dangerous it can be to just throw the word around. It was the first thing I tried to understand after my divorce was final and I got the papers. What is love? Did I really love her? Did she even love me? When I finally came to that conclusion I felt a … Continue reading We Use The Word Love To Much
This is probably the hardest part about being divorced now. I know a few people that have done it, and they do a great job at it, but for me I don’t think I can ever be friends with my ex-wife. Even for the sake of my kids I just don’t think I can. I feel selfish for thinking this way and when I try … Continue reading I can’t be friends with my ex and I’m fine with it
Today I took my oldest son on a field trip and for some reason so many memories started to pop into my mind. I hate the human brain. It never remembers what I want it to, but it will help me to remember the worst moments of my life. When my first child was born I cried for the entire first week of his life. … Continue reading Letting Go Of What I Can’t Control
I’ve been having many issues of trust lately, and on almost every scale of any type of relationship. I know it might seem stupid to some people to move on, but I can’t, and it just disturbs me. I’m 34 years old and I’m not sure if I can hold a steady relationship and even some friendships with people due to my previous marriage. The … Continue reading What If I Only See Flags?