I haven’t written anything out in a long time. Things have been weird because isn’t that how life is? I usually try to write at least once a year now to reflect on my life and to see where I am compared to how bad it was for so many years. In fact, things have been going good…maybe to good actually and that is where … Continue reading Just thinking again
Every time it happens I have to laugh. People will bring my ex up to me and I’m sure it will happen for a large part of my life. An old friend of her’s exposed some things she had said and done during and after our marriage. As usual I wasn’t shocked over finding it out. Some of it I knew, but I’m glad they … Continue reading Is It Worth It?
I frighten myself sometimes. Not in a, I’m going to shoot up the place, kind of fear, but more of how I’ve handled the tradegies in my life. The paths I might take. Who I’ve slowly become as a person. Having PTSD is something you either have to live with or you something that takes you out earlyon. I found out last week that a … Continue reading Suffering Oddly Helps
I love the band Tool. By far one of the best bands that have ever existed and I wouldn’t be shocked if nothing like them comes out for a long time. However, moving passed praising them, I was listening to them this morning and on my playlist the song “The Grudge” pops up. “Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity Calculate what we will … Continue reading Wearing Your Grudges
As usual I get invited on a date and I chicken out. No reason other than myself. The girl was attractive, she seemed nice and she knew what it was like to be a single parent. However, I recently had to take my kids into therapy, and it has been a hurdle I can’t get over. In fact, I think I might stay single for … Continue reading Therapy for my sons and realizing the sad truth
I was recently told by my parents that my ex’s boyfriend sent them a message on Facebook. At first, I was scared. What did he say? My kids have told me things they dislike about him, with good reason, so this worried me and them about him, so I couldn’t imagine what he was going to say to my parents. It wasn’t anything bad, but … Continue reading A Lesson Of Love In The Oddest Place
I’ve been studying Buddhism a lot lately. Reading, watching videos or having small talks with people. I was curious about it even back in high school when I first read a book about it, but I never really plunged into it before until late last month. It is hard to get used to the teachings and there are still so many opinions from others who … Continue reading I’m Starting To Dive Into Buddhism