I love the band Tool. By far one of the best bands that have ever existed and I wouldn’t be shocked if nothing like them comes out for a long time. However, moving passed praising them, I was listening to them this morning and on my playlist the song “The Grudge” pops up. “Wear the grudge like a crown of negativity Calculate what we will … Continue reading Wearing Your Grudges
As usual I get invited on a date and I chicken out. No reason other than myself. The girl was attractive, she seemed nice and she knew what it was like to be a single parent. However, I recently had to take my kids into therapy, and it has been a hurdle I can’t get over. In fact, I think I might stay single for … Continue reading Therapy for my sons and realizing the sad truth
I’ve been studying Buddhism a lot lately. Reading, watching videos or having small talks with people. I was curious about it even back in high school when I first read a book about it, but I never really plunged into it before until late last month. It is hard to get used to the teachings and there are still so many opinions from others who … Continue reading I’m Starting To Dive Into Buddhism
I like to reflect on things usually when a year passes by specific events or possible upcoming ones. Two years have passed since I had a huge gradual change in my life. Attempted suicide, divorce, finding out terrible things about my marriage, but at the same time great things have happened. In fact, every day the good starts to outweigh the bad. Recently I’ve come … Continue reading A little over two years
This is probably the hardest part about being divorced now. I know a few people that have done it, and they do a great job at it, but for me I don’t think I can ever be friends with my ex-wife. Even for the sake of my kids I just don’t think I can. I feel selfish for thinking this way and when I try … Continue reading I can’t be friends with my ex and I’m fine with it
My parents and I recently received some messages telling us they were sorry for what happened. At first, we were confused. What happened? Did someone pass? What is going on. Instead, my ex turned to social media to complain about me, which honestly, I couldn’t careless about. People were telling us that they knew what she said were lies. And they were. One of them … Continue reading Always Something New
Well, today wasn’t what I expected. My ex has been going through my Facebook and found out I recently talked to the ex wife of the man she had an affair with at her job. It doesn’t shock me because she was fooling around with her boss when we were married. The strange thing is I didn’t really care. If that was the person she … Continue reading My ex is having another affair
When the year first started I wanted to change how my sons and I talked to each other. We all like to say we would never talk down or say something mean to family members, but that is a load of crap. I love my kids and I know they love me, but sometimes we like to say hurtful things to each other. I came … Continue reading I Made A Compliment Basket
I had always thought my ex-wife had loved me. When we married each other I thought we were going to be together forever and nothing could ever change that. At the start of 2017 she left me to be with her boss she just met and I slowly pieced everything together, everything that would tell me that my marriage may have been a lie. I … Continue reading I Loved Someone That Never Truly Loved Me
My first sun who is fire red, Burned the first flame within my core, Shines brightly in the dark, Never far from my heart My second sun who is misunderstood, Emotions burst and flames flicker, Dangerous when you get near, Radiance warms the soul My third sun who is a new born star, Whimsical flames dance wild, Bursting orange skies, Never dull with … Continue reading Three Suns
