Should I Even Hope?

Hope is an optimistic attitude of mind that is based on an expectation of positive outcomes related to events and circumstances in one’s life or the world at large.

Recently a door has somewhat opened in my life. I’m not sure how or why the door has opened for me, but this is something I had hoped for a long time ago. That word hope, it didn’t mean a thing to me in a long time. I had been such a cynical asshole for years due to a series of events that happened in my life, but now, hope is a pleasant thing I can look into.

My new outlook has nothing to do with my newfound faith in God. No, I’ve seen people with high hopes who believe in or not in a God. I had lost hope after burning myself out and losing connection to the ones I loved so much around me. Because of this I slowly started to bury myself with every negative aspect of my life creating my own grave.

I wondered if I believed that putting too much faith in hope would just disappoint me because I thought nothing of myself as a disappointment. I assumed that if I expected the worse and when it happened there was nothing to be upset about it. To put so many negative thoughts into the things around me and on myself did nothing but make the people I love hate to be around me.

Before I would have just prepared for the worst, but not this time. Yeah, the worst can happen and I shouldn’t just put all my hope into this. However, I do need some hope in my life. I want this door to be open and I want to create the best life I can through it. Having hope helps me to see the good in the world, the good in others, the good within my family and peace in my soul.

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