I had looked at a study that said the average American would pick up their phone at least forty-six times per day. After I read that I started to almost count in the back of my head how many times I was checking something on my phone. It could be a game, checking my Facebook or maybe even doing a quick Google search of that actor from that movie because I was bored. I realized it needed to stop…this was a month ago.
While I know my phone feels neglected I knew there needed to be a change in my habits with how I used it. I can honestly say this was the best decision I made this year. I have so much free time now because I had made myself a slave to my phone. I had to know what was happening and why all the time, but there was no real reason for me to do that. It was stressing me out and probably what helped in my depression for so many years.
I decided to put myself under some rules. I would only use my phone for a couple of simple tasks. One, the main reason anyone really has a phone, to communicate with a friend. Two, for when I worked out and needed to listen to music and last if I wanted to listen to something educational like a podcast. I thought the first day I wouldn’t be able to do it, but this whole year I’ve been more determined than ever to better myself. Leaving my phone was more simple than I realized.
I did have one tiny little issue though. I really didn’t know what to do with myself. For years my main thing was videos games because I was using it to deal with all my depression/PTSD. However, now that I’ve been getting better they really aren’t as fun anymore. I do still enjoy playing sometimes, but more of a social thing with friends. The first week was bad. Sometimes I would just sit there trying to think of something to do and it would drive me crazy.
It did slowly get better though. I started to work out more, I picked up my guitar again and I was doing whatever I could to learn whether it was a podcast or from a book. You’d be surprised how much you can actually do when you put your mind to it. Being this focused is kind of new to me and I can say that it is something I welcome with open arms.
These past couple of months have slowly become amazing. Yeah, there are some really crappy things going on in my life right now. However, when it comes to myself as a person I’ve done nothing but grow. I love it and I don’t plan to stop.