I thought this week would make me feel good, but I haven’t felt this bad in a long time with no real fault of my own or even something that happened to me. This weight I feel on my chest or the pit in my stomach is nerve racking. I had received word that they needed an IT role filled for a temp job. I … Continue reading Feeling Odd
People love to think in black and white. I see it in Facebook with their random quotes behind a sunset, the way we judge celebrities or politicians acting like we are better than them when their lives are exposed to us. We love to judge, but we hate it when the spot light is being directed at us. I’ve made mistakes in my life. I … Continue reading Forgiving And Apologizing
I recently had a fight with my ex. I found out she has been spying on me and tried to lie. She is terrible at it. No matter how much I catch her whether it her cheating on me, lying about my actions or her recent affair with someone else’s husband it is never her fault. Yet, I still have some feelings for her. We … Continue reading Can I Find It?
I just recently put in a police report to the man that had an affair with my now ex wife. After putting in the report and going shopping with my youngest I started to look at him and realized that I’m not going to be broken apart from this thing for the next fifteen years. And it somewhat scares me on what is going to … Continue reading The Next 15 Years Are Going To Be Difficult
Recently I have been thinking a lot of my past. I couldn’t sleep last night for some reason and I thought about the last fifteen years of my life. I’ve made a lot of mistakes and I almost wanted to just go back and change it all. Wouldn’t it be easy? To just change everything and probably be a completely different person? But I remembered … Continue reading Looking At The Past
Well, today wasn’t what I expected. My ex has been going through my facebook and found out I recently talked to the ex wife of the man she had an affair with at her job. It doesn’t shock me because she was fooling around with her boss when we were married. The strange thing is I didn’t really care. If that was the person she … Continue reading From Out Of Nowhere
Almost a week ago I had a dream that was very random, but maybe not so much now. I was telling a woman that I have recently been talking to, because for some reason she was in it, that I was standing in my grandparents living room. Everyone I knew was there and we were all just talking, that was it. I remember looking towards … Continue reading Can 2017 End Already?