I keep doing this to myself. I’ll start dating again and when I start to put my guard down I’ll fall back because I’m scared. The more I meet people the more I realize they are starting to fall into two different groups. You have those that are single parents who only want to talk bad about their ex and want to live a little … Continue reading Do Or Don’t
I recently went out on a date and the one thing I hate is when people ask about my ex. I guess I can’t blame them though, it is bound to come up due to how much I talk about my kids. I love those little devil’s, so they didn’t just come from nowhere. When I give them the nutshell of what happened people always … Continue reading A Year Of Bad Times, But I’m Actually Happy
I thought this week would make me feel good, but I haven’t felt this bad in a long time with no real fault of my own or even something that happened to me. This weight I feel on my chest or the pit in my stomach is nerve racking. I had received word that they needed an IT role filled for a temp job. I … Continue reading Feeling Odd
People love to think in black and white. I see it in Facebook with their random quotes behind a sunset, the way we judge celebrities or politicians acting like we are better than them when their lives are exposed to us. We love to judge, but we hate it when the spot light is being directed at us. I’ve made mistakes in my life. I … Continue reading Forgiving And Apologizing
I recently had a fight with my ex. I found out she has been spying on me and tried to lie. She is terrible at it. No matter how much I catch her whether it her cheating on me, lying about my actions or her recent affair with someone else’s husband it is never her fault. Yet, I still have some feelings for her. We … Continue reading Can I Find It?
I just recently put in a police report to the man that had an affair with my now ex wife. After putting in the report and going shopping with my youngest I started to look at him and realized that I’m not going to be broken apart from this thing for the next fifteen years. And it somewhat scares me on what is going to … Continue reading The Next 15 Years Are Going To Be Difficult
Recently I have been thinking a lot of my past. I couldn’t sleep last night for some reason and I thought about the last fifteen years of my life. I’ve made a lot of mistakes and I almost wanted to just go back and change it all. Wouldn’t it be easy? To just change everything and probably be a completely different person? But I remembered … Continue reading Looking At The Past